as i sit now

... i a procrastinating. in essence (just for you ... yes you ... because you love that word. yes, that was sarcasm.) ... prolonging that which i am currently using to set me free on the rest of my endeavors.

i a disappointing myself. if you only understood how focused ... fixated .. obsessed i can be with things that provide me immense joy and immediate results ... sigh. if only i could make that work for school as well. meanwhile, one of my students may very well be stumbling along my blog now ... losing faith.

PSA: school is cool. don't quit. ever. -_- ... it's worth it in the end?

what i want: to cook for a wife and children ... to be loved in utter reciprocity ... to be somewhere planning someone's event ... or promoting some excellent production ... or brainstorming new ways to get money ... (like ... wait no! these are my ideas! not yours!) ... in order to save and invest and make more money ... and make sure my kids understand how they can do the same. ... or for the sole purpose of living it up like jay and bey ... whatever.

i must will myself to write. i can do it. i am smart. i care ... about these issues ... (ok, i give less than two fucks about medieval literature) ... but i care about the rest of what i am doing.

fear is nothing. i can get this done.

... thanks for tuning in for the pep talk. hope we dont have to do this again. ...

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JamiGate 09

So Jim Jam came to town ...

and we were stuck in NY for awhile ....

meanwhile ... you'd think of all the NY Myspace/Facebook/Twitter/Linkedin/etc friends I have ... I would have called someone for directions. nope. silly me.

sigh ... the adventures are as follows ...

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.... ok, so really ... these kids helped brighten our holidays!!!

indeed. bailey rae. like i've loved her long time.

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NJ CHILLIN ....

chill

n.

1. A moderate but penetrating coldness.

2. A sensation of coldness, often accompanied by shivering and pallor of the skin.

3. A checking or dampening of enthusiasm, spirit, or joy: bad news that put a chill on the celebration.

4. A sudden numbing fear or dread.

adj.

1. Moderately cold; chilly: a chill wind.

2. Not warm and friendly; distant: a chill greeting.

3. Discouraging; dispiriting: "Chill penury repressed their noble rage" (Thomas Gray).

v. chilled, chill·ing, chills

v.tr.

1. To affect with or as if with cold.

2. To lower in temperature; cool.

3. To make discouraged; dispirit.

4. Metallurgy To harden (a metallic surface) by rapid cooling.

v.intr.

1. To be seized with cold.

2. To become cold or set: jelly that chills quickly.

3. Metallurgy To become hard by rapid cooling.

4. Slang

a. To calm down or relax. Often used with out.

b. To pass time idly; loiter. Often used with out.

c. To keep company; see socially. Often used with out.

chilling

adjective

• fun or relaxing. Also chill.

chill

adjective

• great, awesome; COOL.

  My boyfriend's new Mustang is way chill.

  by Marisa B., Chapel Hill, NC, USA, Mar 04 2002.

• fine, okay.

  Don't worry about me, I'm chill.

  by Dana, MD, USA, Oct 17 2002.

• okay with; in agreement with.

  Yeah, I'm chill with that.

  by Frost., Sep 11 2003.

• fun, but low-key.

  Person A: How was the party?
  
  Person B: It was chill.

  by Matt S., Messiah College, Mechanicsburg, PA 17055, USA, Oct 31 2003.

• conducive to relaxation; LOW-KEY.

  Person A: How was the party?
  
  Person B: It was chill.

  by Anonymous, Feb 23 2009.

verb

• to relax; HANG OUT.

  Let's go chill at your place.

  by Demetrius Scruggs, FL, USA, Dec 22 1997.

• to calm down.

  Dude, just chill.

  Chill!

  by Demetrius Scruggs, FL, USA, Dec 22 1997.

• to be doing well; to be in good health.

  Person A: How have you been?
  
  Person B: I'm chilling, you?

  by Anonymous, Dec 13 2002.

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• to hang out, relax

Slang terms with the same root words:

• chill: chillin' – chilling – (hide) – chill out – take a chill pill

My favorite portion ...

of Ovid's "Orpheus and Eurydice" .... if you are not familiar with Metamporphoses, Eurydice has been stolen and assumedly going to be turned into a love slave ... Orpheus descends to hell to retrieve her ... annnd go! ...

So Orpheus then
received his wife; and Pluto told him he
might now ascend from these Avernian vales
up to the light, with his Eurydice;
90 but, if he turned his eyes to look at her,
the gift of her delivery would be lost.
They picked their way in silence up a steep
and gloomy path of darkness. There remained
but little more to climb till they would touch
95 earth's surface, when in fear he might again
lose her, and anxious for another look
at her, he turned his eyes so he could gaze
upon her. Instantly she slipped away.
He stretched out to her his despairing arms,
100 eager to rescue her, or feel her form,
but could hold nothing save the yielding air.
Dying the second time, she could not say
a word of censure of her husband's fault;
what had she to complain of -- his great love?
105 Her last word spoken was, "Farewell!" which he
could barely hear, and with no further sound
she fell from him again to Hades.

see what prevention or unnecessary precautions get you? mm.